So, yesterday.. Amelia picked Brett and I up from Harvest Market. We started driving towards Philly. We got a really awesome parking spot and walked a couple blocks to Blackbird. I ate my favorite vegan pizza and they watched. Then we met up with Brie, Victoria, and Steph at a coffee shop a couple blocks up. We sat there for a while til we realized we should probably already be drunk. We walked back to Amelia's car and went to the liquor store on 6th and Moore, which we later learned is referred to as the "shady spot." Brie, Victoria, and I went in. We each bought 2 forties of Steel Reserve. The dude behind the counter looked at me and then said, "You're not 21, are you?" I looked at him and was like "What? Yes, I am.." and then he basically said that Brie and Victoria looked 21, but I looked "young as shit." I then bullshitted a ton and said we've met many times before. It worked. Whatever. We drove to Kayla's new house and we were the first ones there. I gave Kayla a birthday forty and we all sat around and drank. They played beer pong for a little. Then, Amelia decided that we should all play the "drawing game." Which is my absolute favorite game in the world, and it's a thousand times better drunk. We went through the most ridiculous series of words/drawings and I fell so much more in love with those girls. At one point, Victoria randomly said, "So you made out with Shane, right?" which kind of surprised me.. but apparently he told her. So, of course, Shane became the topic of the night. I told her how I felt about him/how things have never really seemed to work out. So, Victoria told me her Ryan story. Which is apparently very similar, but she was just very persistent with him until he finally gave in. The quote I posted below is from our continued conversation. She basically just made me realize that it's not my fault.. at all. After she complimented me and said that I was "hot", I really did feel better about it all. In fact, after this weekend between her and Drew's advice.. I think it might finally be time to stop caring about it. I still did text him and told him we're making out again this Friday. He never answered, but he didn't answer Victoria either so who knows. We left pretty early because we had to pick Amelia's boyfriend up from 30th st. station. I said bye to everyone and made plans with Kayla to get pizza. I finished most of my forty on the drive home, despite how unbelievably drunk I already was. We stopped so I could pee/buy Brett cigarettes. I came home and immediately passed out.

On the way to Philly, I decided that tonight would determine where I should really be next year. If Steph and Brie were ending up in Philly, there's no doubt in my mind that I'd stay around for that. I just feel like I'm finally meeting a group of people that I actually want to be around/getting closer to them/they're liking me back. I even told Victoria I always thought she hated me then told me she loved me and wanted to make out with me, but she has a boyfriend and is being loyal. I think Philadelphia is going to go down as my "home" forever. I just love that place and those people so much.


One of Brie's drawings after the sentence of me finally dying because of too much loko.