Well, it's definitely going to be different. It's going to take some getting used to. I can't say that I'm going to miss it, but maybe I do a little already. I miss having so much hope in set in one place. It's kind of hard to know for certain that all of those months really were just a waste of time. Maybe I learned a little from it, but I mostly just feel disappointed that it never worked out.

I'm happy that this means a fresh start. Even if I can't have you to myself, being friends is enough for me. You're still one of the most fascinating human beings I've ever met. I never want you completely out of my life. I'm finally able to relax around you. Now that I know where we stand, a really great friendship could emerge from this mess.

And who knows where things will be in a year.. Someone told me when I was much younger that just because something won't work out right now, doesn't mean that they'll never work out. As far as I'm concerned, you're always going to be worth that wait. However, right now, I understand that we live very separate lives and it's time to move forward.