Sometimes, it's just easier this way. I understand why this became such a routine a couple years ago. Not knowing is better than finding out, but only 50% of the time. The other 50% is too distant and unknown. It's getting so chilly outside and I shouldn't be feeling like this at all.

I dropped my Economics course because well, I'm lazy. Doing 4 hours of homework on a regular basis and still not totally being able to understand what I was supposed to understand. Now that that's out of my way, my stress levels will decrease and hopefully my general happiness level will increase. I feel like such a baby always finding SOMETHING to complain about, but I guess it's not my fault. There's always something missing and right now, I'm able to identify it but I'm not able to pursue it. What a difficult concept to let yourself follow.

We drove to Philadelphia at 11 last night to get vegan pizza at Ed's. It was comforting, but it made me realize how badly I want to relive this summer. THIS is the period of time that I'm supposed to be excited, but I'm just not. I'm still just going through the motions, not taking anything seriously. The answer is always the same.

I just miss my best friend.