Today was definitely the reassurance I needed. For a little, I forgot what completely drove me to want to get up, go to school, do well in school, and actually try when applying to colleges. Basically, today, during English, my guidance counselor came in to tell me that I successfully dropped AP Economics. That was great news in itself. About 75% of my stress is gone now. I told her I was going to try to aide for a teacher and that once I asked the teachers I had in mind, I'd come back to let her know who I'd be aiding for. I went back into the classroom and was telling my friend how badly I hoped my old Psych teacher had a CP class during 8th block and that I hoped he needed an aid. Literally second later, my guidance counselor walks back in and says, "Melissa, you had Martel for AP Psych last year, right? Well, he's looking for an aide for his 8th block CP class. Go ask him." I ran to him before Spanish to ask if I could aide and he was just as excited as I was. When I got to his class to aide today, I got extremely excited. That classroom started so much. I got to grade quizzes and listen to his lecture. I've already learned about 5 new things. I felt so nerdy, stopping between my Environmental notes to listen to him. All I know is, THIS is the thing I really love. There is nothing else that compares. This year is going to rule. I'm taking classes I'm actually interested in, the workload is heavy although not as heavy as it was when I was still in Econ, but it's extremely enjoyable work. I also get to take a Psych class, without technically being in the class. It's also an entirely different curriculum.. so I'll actually be learning new things.

My birthday is in less than a month now. Fest is in a little over a month. Autumn is here NOW. Things are slowly working their way back up. Only one thing missing and I think this is the best plan I've had yet.