I think it's time for me to take a long break from social networking or at least not relying on it for entertainment as much as I do. constantly knowing what you're up to and that you're not interested in talking to me isn't going to help me ever get over you.

It's felt a looottt like autumn lately. The way that my room is a little chilly with the windows open. The way it smells because of the outdoors and incense mixing. The overall feeling I get when I'm listening to Jawbreaker and my Christmas lights are on. This is honestly the only feeling I will always consistently love. It's the only feeling I could ever turn into a visual symbol and tattoo on myself. Everything else is just a concept.

I'm waking up in 3 hours to drop my best friend off at the bus stop and to say goodbye for who knows how long at this point. I don't think I'm really ready to feel as alone as I know I'll feel. I reconnected with an old good friend earlier tonight. It was cool just sitting with her, telling her how much has changed and realizing how glad I am to be in the place I am now. Even if I'm not totally there yet, I'm still a lot happier than I was a year or so ago.