yesterday, drew, tesla and i headed to south philly for a show show to see captain, we're sinking. we felt awkward instantly because it seems as if all the kids in philly as so cliquey and unwelcoming. so we went on a couple walks, trying to kill time til captain played. drew came back with a 12 pack of pbr for us so we started drinking. of course, the night drastically improved from there. making new friends, singing really loud. it just shows how easily i can prove myself wrong. i have to stop being so judgmental and assuming that everyone's an asshole. after a while, i went on a little walk with a boy and told him basically everything i've been wanting to tell him. it wasn't exactly the ideal conversation, but i'm glad i finally got it out. at least i know i tried. really really tried.