woke up yesterday afternoon to brett sleeping on my floor and my dad with a job application. I filled it out in the sun and waited to tesla to pick us up. we're fucking the system in a totally new way this time. we drove to the delaware water gap and didn't get there until the sun was basically set. we set up camp in the dark and tried starting a fire but failed miserably. i had to cook dinner over a fire that was half there. i got a ton of bugs all over my veggie burger and about 10,000 bug bites. we freaked ourselves out, but made some nice new friends who were camping next to us with about 15 little kids. they helped fix our fire. once we ate cold food that was covered in bugs, we decided to go to sleep. it wasn't the best experience I've ever had, but it was nice just being away from here for a little. I actually slept in until 10:30 which never happens while I'm camping. we drove around for about 2 hours looking for water we could go swimming in (for free.) once we finally found a cute little place called turtle beach, we swam around for about an hour until we realized we were all hungry. we left to go to sheetz for burritos (of course.) we ended up taking a longer route home, driving around my favorite parts of pa. tesla and I talked a lot once we dropped brett off and I just can't stop feeling so nostalgic lately. I really realized today that this autumn is going to suck. nick's going to baltimore, tesla's going to seattle, ashley's going to philly or somewhere farther, and I have no idea where brett is going to be. this is going to be the first birthday in a couple years that I'll be spending without one of them. it makes me miss andrew a lot. not in a way that I want us to be together again, but just in a way that I really wish we were able to be closer. he's so opposed to it, but I guess I can't blame him.

I've spent the past 3 hours listening to the ergs and eating pizza and wishing you were here. I need to grow up.